Trollwind Journal

This is my journal on the things that interest me the most, including books and writing, Scandinavian myth and web design. It has been neglected over the last several months, but that ends now. As I get back into the groove of writing fiction again, this will take on the intended role of a writing journal, marking my progress as I work through writing a novel.

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Writing goes on hold

Saturday, February 28th, 2009

Confirmed on Friday that I will be working extra hours for the next ten weeks as the company I work for got a huge client with a rush project.  It looks like I’ll be managing the majority of all our other clients and projects during that time.  I also found that I may be doing additional Flash and Flex work on the side for one of our clients.

What that means for my writing (and my marriage), is that I’ve got little spare time to do anything and I’ll be spending much of that working on the house and yard.  Unfortunately, I will have little time to blog and even less time to write something substantial, but I’m hoping that I’ll be able to post some of my Flashy things over the next several weeks.

Balancing the work

Thursday, January 8th, 2009

Eventually, I’d like to get to a point where I can write pretty much full-time, augmenting my fiction with various articles or vice-versa.  However, I don’t really want to give up my design and Flash work completely.  There’s just too much interest and investment there to drop it.

I guess my ideal career would consist of me writing fiction for most of my time and then creating accompanying web sites and Flash applications to provide additional backstory, show the revision process and to help make the fictional world deeper for those readers interested in multimedia.  That is my goal with Trollwind.com once I get it going.

What I’ve been fighting with since the beginning of the year is: how much of my “spare” time do I devote to each endeavor?

Part of me says to focus on the fiction writing, because even though it is a slow and steady course, it’s what stirs me the most; another part of me says to start writing articles and non-fiction to begin a speedier transition into a writing career; while yet another part of me says to focus on the potentially more lucrative work of Flash development so that I can work less and spend more of my free time writing.

I have been edging toward the first option so far this year, because I think my passion for the writing will help to keep me motivated.  The only fear is that without having the solid progress of a completed task (for a novel is a long-term undertaking that I’ve been trying at for a decade), I will become discouraged in the future.

I’ll track my progress and thought process in future posts as I go through the next few months.  Until then, I’ll keep on writing.

An excerpt: the open sky

Tuesday, January 6th, 2009

Here is a short excerpt of the first draft I’ve been writing on:

We lay down with our rolls as close to the fire as we could, watching the oily smoke and red cinders fly up into a vast and clear sky, leaving a dark blot before the god’s road, Bifrost.

I had never seen the heavens like this before, where there were no trees or hills to shield us.  It stretched from the Jotunheimar in the east to misty waters in the west with no break but our feeble fire.  We were small and exposed babes before a cold and terrible giant.

For the first time, I truly realized that I could never return home.  Gone foverer was the safety of Fainnvidh’s old willows and trickling streams.  I fear I would have fled down the crest, had shame not stayed me.  I knew Thor had none of the thoughts.  I think he knew no fear.

“When the gods and the dwarf-smiths first placed the stars and the heavenly vault in the sky, all was still.  Giants and trolls ruled Midgardh back then, for Odhinn and his brothers had not yet come to breathe life into Askr and Embla and create the race of man.  The nine worlds were filled with chaos, much worse than the nights we know.  There were no seasons, there was no day nor night, just savage wights devouring one another.

“Tyr, who ruled the Aesir before Odhinn, sought to create order in the nine worlds, like they knew in Asgardh and Vanaheim.  He bid gods to rule the sky, the earth, and even the wild seas.  He sent the old gods Dag and Nott to divide the day from night and had the alf-smiths forge the chariots and sky roads that would carry the Sun and Moon high above.

“The tale says that Tyr’s wife was of the Vanir, though her name is now forgotten.  He had accomplished so much with the help of the joined resolve of the Aesir, the Vanir, the alfar, and the dvergar – as the dwarfs were known back then – but he was not satisfied, for though time and the world had been meted out, Midgardh was still a dangerous and terrible place, and even the gods dared not wander out of their realms without an army behind them.

“One night, Tyr was thinking on his troubles while his wife was spinning.  He sat in silence watching the spinning of her distaff all night until the idea came to him.  He ran off and woke the wisest of the dwarf- and alf-smiths and bade them construct a great pillar, hight the Irminsul.  It stands as tall as the world tree itself and was placed in the heart of a wood somewhere in the realm now known as Svidhjod.

“Then Tyr sent the heavens slowly spinning on the Irminsul’s spear-like head, just as it does tonight.  It was such a terrible sight to behold that the Jotunn and the Thursir, the troubled dead and the evil spirits, the dokkalfar and the svartalfar, and all wights not friendly to the gods fled from the wide open spaces into the shadow-filled caves and forests.  That is why evil lurks in the dark corners of the world.”

I stopped and stared into the sky, oddly comforted by the tale, remembering that the heavens were created by the gods of order and justice to make Midgardh safe.  I tried not to think of how many tales I’ve heard of wights fell and unknown slipping out from the shadows into the world and hearts of men over the last few winters.  I was doing well before Thor, who I thought was either asleep or ignoring me, spoke a few moments later.  His voice was as cold and unfeeling as the night sky.

“Not all evil,” was all he said.

I did not go to sleep for a long time.

I’ll try to keep to update these excerpts periodically as I make my way through the novel.

Winding down is hard to do

Monday, January 5th, 2009

Like so many other people, I have set several daily goals for myself at the beginning of the year.  Some are small, like remembering to take my vitamins or to bring my lunch to work or to avoid drinking soda.  Others are a little more intensive like writing 500 words a day and exercising daily.  I’ve got two writing goals – 500 words on my novel or fiction, and to blog every day.

To write fiction, I’ve made sure that I get up at 5:15ish and try to be out the door not long after 6:00 (but it seems to be 6:30 more often than not).  It is nice to be able to go through and work with no other cares in the world, to just imagine the world that I am creating.  Once it is time to go to work, I reluctantly find a stopping point and head out, often not thinking much about it until I sit back down to write.

To blog, it was my goal to do it before bed at night once I’ve had an opportunity to calm down from my day.  I’m finding this is easier said than done.  I spend my whole day after I stop writing on my novel, thinking about work or all those things that I have to get done.  There are always too many projects that we’re behind on that I’m responsible for.

Getting home is not much of a mental respite.  It’s all about playing with the dog, spending some time with the wife (usually talking about our work days), cooking dinner, exercising and cleaning up before bed.  When I sit down to write, I’ve got so much of my day going through my head, that I don’t even know where to start.  The last thing I want to write about is work related stuff, but it seems to be all that I can think about.

I think as I get into the habit of writing, I need to make time during the day to sit down and just brainstorm some ideas.  Nothing formal, just twenty minutes of letting my mind wander and directing it down a path that is not work related.  Perhaps with time it will become easier to wind down and let go.

Otherwise, my brainstorming is just one more thing on my list to do.

New beginnings and a Nordic tale

Sunday, January 4th, 2009

In November, I wanted to take part in NaNoWriMo with the goal of writing a 50,000 word first draft for a potential novel.  Well November was just a little too crazy to get much of anything done, let alone trying to write 1,500+ words a day, so I decided to wait until January to start my own NaNoWriMo.

I’m going to ease into things and give myself a goal of 4,000 words a week for the first month.  That’ll give me a daily goal of 500 words while I get my brain and soul back in the habit of writing everyday, plus a little leeway on the weekend to make up time if I miss a day here or there.

Of course, my writing will be a fantasy story based on Scandinavian myth and legend.  Most people who know me have heard the words Norse myths, Icelandic poetry, and fantasy escape my lips a few times.  Few have ever read anything that I’ve written, though.

The goal this new year is to change that.  To write regularly, and to share my strange little passion with anyone who would like to listen.